I think I’m going through some growing pains. Learning is exciting, but it also hurts. Making mistakes hurts. It’s frustrating. Being frustrated hurts. I see how I fall short from where I want to be. I feel I should have and could have done more. Obviously I couldn’t because I know I’ve done all I could. But it doesn’t feel good.
So I have to remind myself that the reason I’m seeing all of this is because I’m growing. If I felt nothing I would be on the wrong path. I tell myself “keep going work through it, do what you can and trust that you’re doing all you can and that you’ll be able to do more later”
I feel so much better after writing this out to myself. It can be so frustrating to look at inspiration, to want many things, to feel the burning of ambition, and to not live up to your vision of who you think you should be. And it can be such a defeating feeling if you’re not understanding it for what it is. It’s like the inability to move after a hard workout the day before because your muscles are too sore. Not being able to do a single pushup because your arms are burnt out. If you didn’t understand muscle soreness it would be a defeating feeling, too. Instead it feels good because you know you’ve worked hard and made progress.
Making the wrong choices hurts, making mistakes hurt. But if they didn’t, we wouldn’t be learning from them. Lean in on the pain and learn. Then form new resolve and get back up. You just grew!